I spent my childhood very sheltered, over protected, but emotionally starved and alot of the time I felt very alone and misunderstood. 

I grew up without a dad and a bit of a different setup. The dad situation is a whole other thing, I had to face from the age of 16 when I found out a life crushing truth. 

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I had anxiety and panic disorder from childhood. But It was a silent struggle as I didn't understand what it was and I had no one to talk to about it. I was never believed in the mornings before school i used to genuinely feel so sick - I was met with anger and frustration and disbelief.

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I was very vulnerable and was groomed at 15 by a very toxic, quite frankly evil man. 5 years on and off with him was some of the most awful moments of my life. Sexual abuse was the norm and i knew no different, and even after we'd broken up, I suffered another instance of sexual assault under his control. 

Thinking I was being saved from this awful human, I met and fell deeply in love...

And then at 27 my mum got cancer again, this time - breast, brain, lung and liver. There was no coming back from that this time and that time of my life was very all consuming and heartbreaking but I had to become the protector parent, to my mum. When she died, I broke. I didn't want to live without her and I didn't know how to. I started having panic attacks again, every morning before work - then I would put on the happy positive mask and no one knew what I was dealing with, again.. alone.

 

My "saviour" boyfriend at the time was like a rock back then, and I thought I'd be with him forever. We were SO happy.. like sickeningly happy, and lots of PDA that drove people nuts.. But then my world got turned upside down AGAIN...

After getting married to the love of my life and having two children.. a switch flicked and he changed. He became distant, cold, covert narcissistic traits came out like his mask had fallen away and he completely changed - Even his family noticed he changed.

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I spent nearly 10 years in that toxic marriage, always hopeful he'd become the man I married once again, he did not. Instead, during Covid lock down in 2020 he left me. For someone else.

I was at my absolute lowest mentally, so anxious and stressed, health anxiety that was out of control - I was dealing with crushing heartbreak and all of this while raising my then 5 year old who had just started Reception, so I had to home school her and I also had a 1 year old very needy high energy little boy. 

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There is more to my story but let me tell you -

It has been hell on earth. But I survived. Somehow.

 

I've had many dark nights of the soul, heartbreaking losses, moments where I genuinely couldn't see a way through.

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And then, after about 30 years of all that painand suffering, I finally started to figure some things out.

During Covid I started to practice meditation. For the first time in my life I felt what it was like to be calm, to quieten the noise and stop the constant spiralling thoughts. What a relief!!

 

I was then introduced to Joe Dispenza's books, teachings and meditations and I threw myself into that completely, as it all just made sense. It helped me rewire my brain, my limiting beliefs, and really have hope for a better future.

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Change your thoughts - change your life!

 

I was sick of the patterns repeating, the same toxic men I was attracting in and it was all because of my internal subconscious beliefs, and I HAD THE POWER TO CHANGE THAT!

So I was determined to do just that.

 

I delved into shadow work, inner child healing, and the rewiring process. Understanding why I kept attracting what I did. What I actually believed about myself, deep down, underneath all the stuff I'd plastered over it. Healing is hard, intense and gruelling, It is painful to see the truth sometimes but it is necessary and really will set you free. 

 

My life has now completely changed.

I've completely changed.

I've returned to myself.

I've returned to love.

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All the while, the intuitive gifts had been quietly developing. I've always felt things deeply - other people's energy, what's going on beneath the surface, things people aren't saying. For a long time I just thought I was "too sensitive." Turns out that's actually a gift, and now I am putting all my "gifts" to good use to help others heal and grow.

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So now I use all of it - my healing energy, the tarot, the intuition, the Reiki, the shadow and inner child work, the lived experience of having been properly kicked down by life and clawed my way back - to sit with people the way I wish someone had sat with me. Without rushing or dismissing. Just validation, acceptance, no judgement, love and truth.

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​I know I can transform peoples lives and it's my mission to do just that. 

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Thank you for reading and witnessing me.

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If you felt a resonance to any part of my story, or you heard a little voice say - she's the one who can help me.. trust that.

People are divinely guided to me. 

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I'd love to connect with you soon. 

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Lots of love, Sarah xx

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